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My Way of Saying: "byebye"

Hey guyz...it's been a while since I have not posted anything, but I think this is my last post on this blog because my inspiration died, she was gone,she isn't here with me this time you can read my words...my true words my stupid words. I know that I haven't many followers but I wanna read this just the people that I love. So this time will be a story about my stupid feelings and my lonley mind. I know already...that sounds sucks but just try okay? Isn't so hard.
I mean, when you lose that special person in your life you are dead.
I don't want forgiveness. Because you do not want to hear, so I give up as you asked.


I wanna say that I'm so lucky because I have so many friends and I love all of them.I never imagined that I could have them and I am very lucky. Unfortunately I lost two people. I lost he & she. Is funny but there is a connection between them and have something in common: they don't wanna me in their lives. It's okay but I can understand.
My mind is clear now that I can tell : it's my mistake. So what can I do now? Nothing...because it's to late. I lost two friends...so now I want to take care of those who remained with me.

I wanna say thank you to: Dora. He's a old friend. She always helped me and this girl was always with me. I know that maybe I made mistakes. But she's that sweet girl who forgives all. She and my cousin, Robert have proved that true love is mins. Don't have to give up something just because it changes the landscape.
She and Ioana was all time with me. But now I can't be with Ioana.She will return soon. But until then I want to say: "Girl...I love you! Thank you for your friendship! You are amazing...you inspired me!"
Hey Nyko! Sorry for those moments when I was mischievous with you. You can forgive me? Thank you so much for everything you did for me. I will never forget.
I got up here ... so I'll continue.
When I remember those moments I feel like laughing. Why? Because I remember how I met her. It's all about Andreea [Emily]! And I will be honest. At first I hated she! Why? Because I thought she wanted to steal my friends : Ioana and Dora. Now I know her very well and I can say I can't live without her. I love her!
Some of my best friends : Facebook and Twitter! Sounds stupid but it's true. If I had not dared to make my facebook and twitter accounts would not be able to know people so many wonderful friends.
Who are they?
Okay!
First time I met: Quest Crew! And thank you God for this because I can't live without them.
After that I met: Crystal Jane Perez, Nana Söckchen, Jocelyn Angeles, Fanny Love. They were among the first people who gave me their love and I must say thank you for this.
Was an honor for me to know: Sheryl Kaye Sagabaen, Renee Robertson, Alexis Harrison, Randy Abaja, Daryl Lingz, Dominic Marshall, Louyd Valleras, Melissa J. Feng, Tyler EmoKid,Darice Claire A. Daquilos. I don' talked too much with them but I hope that in future we'll know better.
I'm just lucky because I could know: U-KISS, SHINee and B2st! Now they are a part of my life and me.
After some time I met : Eljay Stepanov Leyble, Mario Maurer, Wakana Kato, Thadeus Meixner, Maleya EhKhu, @iQuestie, Vanessa Burger, @girlcanmovetoo, Livica Cazacu, Jeunice
Elizalde, @cesz_ly, Raisa Sehovic and Shawna Oglesby. They are amazing. And are my friends are. I do not care if they I am selfish. I don't want to share them with anyone.
Maybe they don't consider me their friend. But it's okay. I'll always love them.





[Roselline Marie Hamillon = all words I've written are yours. always will be.]
should not say anything. just read


[ hihi I ask many excuses if I missed someone! I rushed for that special person did not want to leave her computer.]

Enjoy!

Remember Me!

True Friends...I never forget you...

Ordinea de zi

Haha! Cum ti s-ar parea daca ai locui intr-un apartament cu inca 2 fete, ma rog 3, dar a treia e invizibila...ai crede ca e super funny, nu e asa? Pai si daca v-as zice ca acum toate sunt rapuse de gripa ce ati face? =))
Okay, deci situatia e cam asa: sfarsit de semestru, totul roz, scoala nu mai e asa de stresanta, pentru o vreme, ne bucuram de libertatea lasa de unii profi si ne calculam cate absente ne mai trebuie pana a-l ajunge pe vecinul din urma, adica nu se poate ca el sa aiba mai multe, pff...si tu sa fii pe locul 2? Daca nu poti sa il dobori la matematica poate o sa reusesti sa ai mai multe absente ca el. Dar intre timp afli ca ai chiar prea multe absente si intr-adevar: esti in varf...nu poti fi atins nici cu varful prajinei.
Si totusi ghinionul( ca am destul mai ales ca o persoana al carui nume, Ioana nu am sa-l rosetesc iti zice mereu: "N-ai avea noroc!" ) face ca acele doua persoane care iti sunt colege de apartament sa raceasca, mai intai una si pe urma cealalta...si tu mandra rau ca tu nu racesti, peste cateva zile vezi cum mucii iti ajung la genunchi...eh si daca nu mai ai nici servetele folosesti hartie igienica, dar sa nu o folosesti pe toata ca poate cineva (adica acea persoana invizibila ramne fara cand face cahh, aidica stiti voi ce).
De la scoala ai chiuli artistic, dar nu vrei ca diriga sa te impuste asa ca rabdzi inca cateva zile pana cand ajungi acasa.
Acum suntem toate trei racite moarete, cu buzunarele goale, cu stomacurile goale, dar hehe avem nasurile pline...=P

I wish

Pointless thoughts

I still remember that day when I was alone, confused and sad. Nobody cares about me, me and my thoughts were just pathetic. My dreams focus entirely on you, but you don't even understand. I don't care about anyone but you could see yourself. But you were there. You were with me, you looked at me and do not understand why I am sad. I didn't believe in yourself, but don't believe me ... and don't believe in us.

I was stupid and blind. You were there, as well as my friends. I don't know how to appreciate your help, but thank you so much for this. I never imagined that I could have these wonderful friends. God blessed me with a wonderful gift.

I never thought I could find these wonderful friends. But the most precious is Roselline. This lovely girl always makes me smile and  banish the sadness.She's my treasure that I keep in my heart. I hope to have you here forever, girl because I could not live my life without you near me.

I'm not a good friend, but I'm yours. You have me and I have you. Lately I've been putting it between two worlds: between your world and ours.

I hope I am not crash ever. And if it happens I hope you catch me. I need you, so don't forget me. Forgive me for days when I could not be there or I could not understand. I do everything I can. Wherever you are and whatever you do now, I'm glad you're my friend.

[This is for my lovely friends who loves me so much and they are with me all time. Love you, guyz!]

What is love? You are my love

          Iubirea, love, l'amour, liebe...atatea denumiri pentru acest nobil sentiment si totusi o singura definitie. Poti cauta tu in orice carti filozofice, incearca sa ii citezi pe toti poetii si totusi niciodata nu vei ajunge sa cunostii cu adevarat acest senitmet.
          Ai fost vreodata indragostit?
          Ai simtit acel sentiment inaltaor care iti da aripi? Ai inspirat acel parfum care pur si simplu te imbata? Ai simiti ca nimic nu iti poate zdruncina lumea? Ai simiti ca esti cel mai fericit om din lume? Ai simiti ca poti sa traiesti fara apa, fara mancara, doar cu un pic de iubire? Deci ai simtit iubirea...

Pentru mine tu esti acela, cel care a topit gheata din inima mea si a adus un pic de caldura. Tu esti cel care mi-a aratat cum poti sa tii lumea mea in palma ta, tu esti cel care mi-a aratat cat de colorata poate fi lumea si in final tot tu ai reusit sa adauci o bataie in plus inimi mele.

E atat de frumos cand auzi pe cineva cand spune: "Te iubesc!" si simti ca nu te minte...e atat de frumos cand auzi aceste cuvinte soptite de cineva la urechea ta, e atat de placut cum simti fiorul vocii lui cum iti gadila timpanul...

"Somebody To Luv"

.

 Cu tine am gasit iubirea in orice fragment din viata mea. 

Ma bucur ca e doar a mea, nimeni nu mi-o poate lua, dar cel mai bun lucru: E de la tine.

[That's for my first D! ^^ Now I love so much my actually D! <3 enjoy it guyz!]

                              

True Love

At times, you seem so near

As if you're a part of me

my life...my soul...

Yet at times, you seem so distant

So far away from me...

Yet I can hear my self speaking to you.

laughing with you...

No, I'm not crazy. I'm not mad...

I guess...I'm in love with you 

Shin DongHo!

  [Hope you like it baby boy ^^]

Inspiratie in locuri ciudate ^^

          Nu m-am gandit niciodata ca o sa ajung vreodata sa chiulesc de la biologie...ei bine poate ca stiam ca o sa fac asta, dar nu in toaleta. Dumnezeu stie cum am putut sta acolo timp de ora, norocul meu este ca am avut un caiet cu mine si mi-am demonstrat cat de talentata sunt pe toaleta. Probabil ca daca ma prindea cineva acolo, cu un caiet pe genunchi ar fi zis ca sunt retardata...Dar sunt fata inteligenta :)) asa ca ma gandisem deja la o scuza: "Doamna profesoara, imi este rau!", dar totusi cine ar crede o retardata care ar spune asta? Cine sta in toaleta cand ii este rau, cu un caiet, chinuindu-se de zor sa scrie ceva? Raspuns: EU!
          Dar dupa ce m-am laudat atat iata si marea creatie:


          "De ce ma invinovatesc toti? In viata fiecarui om exista o poveste neagra. Dar a mea e scufundata in negura. O singura gresala, doar atat am facut si pentru asta am platit scump. Acum incerc sa uit...sa ma concentrez in viitor, dar nu pot pentru ca ei nu vor: nu vor sa a lase sa mor, sa mor cu trecutul meu incolor si sa renasc cu viitorul infloritor.
          Acele zile intunecate, mereu vor fi acolo, sugrumate, printre amintiri desarte. Nu vor putea fi uitate, nicidecum sterse, poate printr-o incercare absurda: ascunse.
          Am renuntat de mult sa cred in vise, nu sunt decat niste idealuri sterse. Prietenii, familie...tot ce aveam...ei  nu mai sunt aici, sa aiba grija de mine asa cum speram. M-au parasit sau m-au uitat? Cine stie?
           Acum sunt singura...aici printe suflete pierdute"

Gift for a friend!

          Tu chiar crezi ca eu vreau sa te uit? Ha! Cum as putea? De fiecare data cand vreau sa te urasc imi amintesc de acele zile nebune, cand hoinaream prin padure. Cred, sau poate ma insel, dar astazi mi-am dat seama cat de mult pot tine la tine. Nu esti o simpla perosona, niciodata nu ai fost: esti sprijinul meu, esti motorul meu, esti motivul meu...esti inspiratia mea.
          Sunt o persoana rea? Da? Dar asta o stiu deja. Vrei sa ma schimb? Imi pare rau, dar deja imi ceri prea mult. Nu stiu cum ar trebui sa ma comport, nu stiu ce ar trebui sa spun, nu stiu ce ar trebui sa fac acum, dar stiu sa fiu eu insumi. Deci, te rog, imi ingadui sa fiu eu? Acea persoana nebuna, careai ii place sa rada? Pot, pot, pot? Inca mai astept raspunsul tau.
         Ma comport cam imatur? Asa e? Asa si? Sunt un copil, vreau sa traiesc viata asa cum stiu, pot sa ma distrez, pot sa fiu oricine vreau sa fiu, dar nu pot "without you".
          Ma contrazici mereu. De ce? De ce nu ma asculti si pe mine macar odata, copile? Dar ce tu crezi ca eu te mint atunci cand iti spun ce simt? Asculta acum, poate iti intra bine in cap, desi la asta chiar nu ma pot astepta:


         " Ce au fost acesti ani nebunesti? Doar o distractie sau nu? Atunci ai incredere in mine cand iti spun: "Te iubesc!", "Esti minunata!", "Esti modelul meu!", "Sunt geloasa pe tine, dar totusi continui sa te ador!".


          Te-am mintit eu vreodata? Nu! Tu stii ca o mint numai pe Dora cand iti spun ca ii sta bine parul, dar cu tine mereu am vrut sa fiu sincera.

          Inca mai crezi ca eu nu simt nimic pentru tine? De cand m-am nascut Dumnezeu mi te-a dat pe tine. Deci tu crezi ca eu o sa te las pe tine? Niciodata, baby! Cum as putea face asta? Esti jumatatea mea, esti sora mea...sper ca gaseti un motiv sa ramani a mea [dar doar  a mea]. O sa citesti vreodata asta? Sau aceste seri nedormita vor zbura asa: pur si simplu? Vom vedeam.

[pentru acea fata care ma stie drept "sora-sa", sper sa iti placa copile, pentru ca e dor pentru tine, Roselline Hamilton]

Always be near me!

          I was born, I grew up and I'm here!
          Why?
        
          "Kid, you'll never be alone, I'll never forget you. I will always be with you. I am everywhere and anywhere. Looking for a friend? You can count on me. I'm your parent,I'm your friend, I am whoever you want to be, I am here to listen you."
         
           I look at the sky. But I do not see anything: just clouds, birds, and unfulfilled dreams.


          "You can't see me, but you can feel me, there, in your heart. There will always be a place for me. You believe in me?"


          Again look to the sky. And I see the same gorgeous infinity. There's nobody there. It'sjust my imagination? Or ... am crazy.


          "I'm sad. So do not believe in me. Today you came to me. Did you raise playful eyes at me andasked me if I can take care of you. Now do you remember? Am I the one who is always beside you. He will never leave,even if you don't will see."

          My thoughts are scattered. But I'm sure what I hear. It's his voice, is the supreme, is my guardian, my friend, is my father is one who is always beside me.




                                           [You do not have any friends? Then look on me. One of my best friends is God. Let your friend know it.]

"I move to London!"

     On 16th January was a day like any other: a simple day with friends in town, but not all: only one person was missing. What happened to her? It's sick? Does she learn? It's out of town? Nobody knows the answer, but few hours later it came in a bad way. It was revealed in a simple quarrel unimportant between two friends, or ex-best friends (do not know how to say now). The message was simple and to the point: "I move to London. It is like a shot in the heart, blood flowed and never stopped. Tears began to flow, and those brown eyes still trying to find an error message but could not find. It was a bad joke or reality?
     Several hours have not said a word, leaving others to talk about them. An immature gesture, if you ask me. But maybe it was their way of trying to lie: to lie still because nothing is true, it's just a nightmare from which you can not wake up.
     Best friend forever. These words come from the mouth of every man, but all know the meaning? I don't think so...
     Later, reality has caught up and cleared everything. It was true. One of them moved, but the other could not do anything. Maybe they live in different worlds, but then why fate brought them together? It was just a game and they were pawns.
     They said they are friends but now no one no longer believes that.
     You know what I see? Two people hold one another more than they think. But then whymake the game impossible? Why not try to move the pieces? Time for a chess mat,it's time for a change.
     Do what your heart says, listen to her voice, be there for her, understand her problems, be her friend forever, says something that no one would say, be special...be you...be with her.






                                     [I'm that girl selfish, you know me? Listen my Message..."STAY WITH ME"]